I found her through Ci
ndy Kubica's web show, Energized Living Today. Though impressed by her soft British voice and her loving demeanor, I was not sure about Michelle. Her focus was on releasing energy that caused blocks and addictive behavior and filling the space created with Divine Love, and I'd never heard of her before.Michelle's story began when she finally got tired of a lifetime of poor health, poor working conditions and a failed marriage. She found herself suffering from a debilitating illness and immersed herself in healing herself energetically. Everyday during her illness she released any energy that was holding her back from her true purpose and as she healed herself she eventually became the person she is today - healthy, happy, loving, and an energetic healer loved and admired by many.
It's interesting to me the differences I feel between the transmissions I have experienced with Mahendra Trivedi and his wife Dahryn, Panache Desai, Rudy Hunter and now Michelle. Most of the energy transmissions make me feel a little like being on a good roller coaster ride. I feel my body lighten up with the g-forces and my head and solar plexus start to float around inside as if I suddenly weigh less. During the most powerful transmissions I feel a circular motion of energy that spins around my whole being. Michelle's energy is much the same but with a bonus; she not only likes to clear out unwanted and unneeded energy, she likes to fill the spaces left behind with pure love energy. I liken it to a wood worker filling in cracks of their woodwork with turquoise or some other gem. the more cracks created in my energetic wall, the more gems are used to fill the voids. With every clearing I add more Love gem to my wall, eventually replacing the wall completely with pure love energy. So the theory goes.
Actually, it feels more like a likelihood than a theory. Each transmission is working on filling me with love energy. My heart and mind is expanding with it. Michelle warns at the end of her recordings that I might feel light-headed after listening, but I find that the light headiness actually starts within seconds and lasts for a few minutes after the recording is over. Like a roller coaster ride that shakes up your sinuses, my head swims with the motion of the energy flow. I feel lighter for longer periods of time.
"Divine Love, please fill all space created to overflowing with pure love." www.pureloveforever.com
The other night I had an eye-opening dream. I went on vacation with my parents, my brothers and their kids and found myself being left behind whenever they went out on the town. I was filled with emotional turmoil. Not only did I feel lost, left out, forgotten, and unwanted, I felt separated from the family collective and I was angry about it.
My real life was much like that: even as a child I found myself standing in the sidelines repeatedly for many reasons - I was the oldest, the only girl, quiet and mindful, shy and copacetic, so I was frequently left on my own while my parents dealt with two wild boys and the hardship of living on a shoestring. As I grew older, my family had gotten used to the way things always were and I stopped complaining, if I ever did, so nothing changed when my brothers and I became adults. I eventually got so used to it I made it part of my personal identity. I was the wallflower who had to find her own way. I learned to become independent of the rest of the family and create my own life that may or may not include my family and friends. I became a loner, comfortable in my own skin and capable of taking good care of myself.
I thought I had gotten over the original childhood emotional angst, but apparently I'd just pushed the emotions aside. The message was clear when I woke up from my dream: this is something I have to clear in order to move on. I need to release these emotional blocks and fill the space with pure love.
Michelle Carter might be the person to help me. Certainly her clearings triggered the dream and the memories.
I wonder what else my dreams are trying to tell me.
