Well, Now...

Time has flown by and I realized that I promised to keep you posted on the different programs I'm trying, so here's my report:

I tried the Healing Codes for a while, then worked with Dr. Alex Lloyd's Master Key program, and I tried to keep up the regular meditations for as long as my attention deficiency would let me.  Even though I couldn't keep the practice up for the whole 40 days, I found the Master Key meditations relaxing.  I'd sit and watch the videos, repeat the special words out loud or in my head, and listen to the love tone for twenty minutes.  Sometimes I'd plug my ears into my MP3 player and spend 20 minutes before bed relaxing into the mantra, mixing it with the hand gestures for the Healing Codes every once in a while to break things up.

I could feel energy moving around my head, and could tell the whole system was worth the price, but I was side-tracked by a new puppy, crystal meditation bowls and Eva Gregory.  Sorry to say, I didn't continue the Master Key program, though I keep the videos and audios on stand-by until I'm ready to try again.  I never was good with anything that took regular practice for any amount of time.  Sometimes things take too much time to work, and I move on and forget about them. 

I have to say the same thing happened with the brain entrainment audios.  Even though I kept up with them for almost a year, I eventually lost focus and moved onto bigger things.  I feel smarter, though!

I finished my month with Eva Gregory and even though I didn't enroll in her year-long course I did join her Cosmic Couch community.  For a monthly fee you join her club of spiritual growth students and have access to monthly teleseminars, posted audio meditations and videos, and community blogs.  She's trying very hard to create a special social media club to share music, join forums, and connect with like-minded peers.  I thought I'd give it a try,  though I'm having a bit of trouble finding the need for sharing.  I may not last long with this club.

During my You-Tube perusal I discovered 12soundsolutions.com's channel.  Doug Parvin, a certified hypnotherapist and sound therapist, uploaded a series of 7 videos that featured Tibetan crystal bowl meditations.  Each video was nothing more than a bowl filled with colored light played to tones that correspond with individual chakras, something that I've been interested in for years.  The pure tone and length of the videos worked well with my chakras.  I was so impressed I visited his website and bought a DVD version of the bowl tones that Doug combined with some pretty interesting color effects, enhancing the experience of the tones and clear your chakras.  I find myself flying high after each bowl of light.  I love it.

Here's a sample of the bowl toning for the root chakra.  Try the others on You Tube HERE.

You can visit 12soundsolutions.com to see what Doug Parvin has to offer.  He even offers a DVD of a stream in the woods for you to play to relax to when you need a touch of nature but don't want to leave home.

As for the puppy, well, I couldn't resist her.

A couple of months ago my dog Jolene had a health scare that did not end well.  Out of the blue she developed a tear in her lung that resulted in air leaking into her chest cavity.  This caused her lungs to compress and she had no way of getting a good breath.  Instead of opting for an operation that would result in breaking her open to repair or take out her lung without the guarantee that she'd survive the trauma, I decided to let her go.  She fell asleep in my lap, one of her favorite things to do,  and never woke up.  I still don't know for sure why it happened, but concluded it was an injury from her life before me that waited until she was happy and secure to finally take it's toll.  I wonder if she planned it that way.


It took me some time, but I finally decided to look for a new dog, and chose to adopt a rescue puppy.  It's been a while since I raised a dog from puppyhood, and I wanted to make sure I picked the right one, so I took my time.  Last week I brought Roxie home with me from a dog adoption event; one look at her little body, beautiful brown eyes and big doe ears and I decided I was ready.  She's smart as a whip, cute, and feisty; a chihuahua/dachshund mix who thinks she's a mountain goat.  She's discovered she can jump over tall baby gates, perch on top of the furniture, and chew through anything in her way.  I thought I was playing it safe by bringing home a small dog, but she's proving me wrong. 

She's killing me, but she has the makings of a great dog companion. 

Last month I tried a session with an Access Code practitioner, and decided to take a class to learn how to do it myself.  The next blog will be an exploration of the Access Codes, another health/emotional/energy healing mode I discovered recently.  The more I learn about it, the more interesting it gets.

Till then, happy toning!

Dolores Cannon

Dolores Cannon says our planet is so energetically dense, so negative and violent, that the rest of the universe has left us alone in the corner of the galaxy to let us figure out what to do with ourselves.  They are afraid of our violence.

They have, however, kept watch over us and are helping us change with the planet.  They say they have no control of the chemistry of our brains, but can educate us and aid our DNA activation.  We are almost ready to become what we are meant to be.  There have been 3 waves of volunteers born on this planet who came with the sole purpose of supporting the planet and it's inhabitants.  Dolores shows us how to recognize if we are part of one of those waves.

The Earth is a living entity and it's evolving; we are on the cusp of moving into a higher vibrating reality. 

Delores Cannon is a past-life regressionist and hypnotherapist who specializes in the recovery and cataloging of "Lost Knowledge".  Working through several different subjects, and by several I mean thousands, Dolores was able to establish communication with several different planetary beings and guides and published several books that contain the information she collected.  She's been all over the planet sharing her knowledge and is a popular speaker and expert on the metaphysical and UFO investigations.

Watch her video - it's fascinating.  Dr. Dolores is articulate and interesting.  Believe what you want; she teaches that we need to pay attention and choose - we grow or get left behind. 

The Earth is getting ready to shift and it doesn't care if we go with it or not, so it's up to us to decide to go or stay.  If we want to shed our density and be part of the new Earth,  get rid of fear.  Fear holds us back in so many ways and traps us in low frequencies.  It's also important that we work on our karma, learn to forgive and let go of anything in this life or previous lives.  It's part of our frequency work to learn how.

Dolores has a website:  www.ozarkmt.com  .  She'll be speaking at a UFO conference in April of 2013 and is featured in an exciting film called, "3 Magic Words", due to premier on December 21, 2012 in London.  She's doing a lot - I'm 30 years younger than she and I'm worn out thinking about it.

Dolores, you go girl!

My Adventures With Tree

One morning, not so long ago, I had a dream.  I was in the desert taking refuge in a little adobe souvenir shop.  It was hot and brilliantly bright outside and I was gazing at the view outside the square pane-less window.  What I saw astounded me:  a very long, long dead tree had fallen, stretching from outside the little shop to maybe half a mile away.  All the branches and roots had rotted away leaving only the tree trunk.  There was no bark left and it looked like it was on it's way to petrifying.  I couldn't tell how old the tree was or how long it had laid there but it was beautiful and it was huge.

For some odd reason I decided I needed to go out into the desert sun and hike to the end of it.  I had a clear view of the base of the tree and wanted to see the top, but it was so far away I risked dehydration before I could finish the hike.  The shop owner warned me against it, but I was convinced I'd have no trouble, so I left the shop and started my long walk to the top of the tree.

When I woke up from this strange dream there was a chorus singing in my ear, "I'm home.  I'm ho-o-ome," over and over again.

Of course, my waking thought was, "What the heck was that about?" I listened to the song for a few more minutes as it continued to play in my head, then I got out of bed, went about my day, and finally forgot about it.

Two doors down, right in front of a neighbor's house, there was a willow oak tree that was so old and tall - over 50 feet tall -  that it loomed above the house.  It had spread it's gargantuan limbs so far and wide that it covered their house, my house, and the house in between us.  It was also too close to the house, so had to lean out toward the street to avoid growing into the walls.  This in itself was amazing enough because you could see that somehow the tree knew to keep it's distance; when you looked at it from the side, there were thick branches growing away from the house and over the roof, and there was no evidence that any had been trimmed between it and the house.  It had grown over the years in tandem with the house.

The other amazing thing was that even though there was evidence of some rotting in the trunk, the tree was still deemed healthy by arborists and was capable of living another 50 years or more.

The problem was that it was leaning enough to make us nervous and was huge.  Most of it's limbs were as large as the trunks of the other trees in our neighborhood.  Generations of different squirrel families had lived in it crooks.  Every year it took up to two months to rake up it's fall leaves.  When I looked out my bedroom window I had the feeling of living in a tree house, and this tree was two houses away!

Unfortunately we were getting hit every year by stronger and stronger storms, and everybody worried that it would give up in the wind, come down and take a few houses, gas lines and cars with it.  People all over the D.C. area were cutting down their old trees for the same reason - not too long ago someone died in his car while sitting in traffic as a tree limb came crashing down on him.  My neighbor and owner of the house two doors down was attached to this old oak, and everybody living under it was attached also, so when she finally decided to cut it down after our last hurricane we were a bit in shock.  We never expected her to actually do it.

Within a couple of days of learning about her decision, the tree started to disappear.  First the tree trimmers attacked the right half of the tree, cutting it back limb by limb.  Two days later they came back to strip it of it's other half, leaving the tree armless and bare.  We in the neighborhood could feel it's pain.  It looked like a 50 foot tall giant that had just had his arms amputated.  It was bad.

During this monumental tree trimming, I decided I needed to distance myself from the ordeal and listened to a meditation by Eva Gregory.  The goal of the meditation was to get us, the internet audience, in touch with our higher self and find some guidance.  I put on my headsets to try to drown out the incessant power saw drone and followed  Eva's calming voice into another realm.  Once I was relaxed and in the presence of my higher self I asked him if he had any messages.

He said, "Don't go home."

A switch went off in my head that put my dream, which I'd had only the week before, back into my memory banks.  I realized the tree was trying to tell me something. 

The more I thought about it the more I realized that it had been a very protective and loving tree.  It's roots had to be as big and as far reaching as the tree was above ground, which meant it was holding up all three of our houses.  It's branches had spread over us like a protective blanket; it was animal and bird friendly and stood strong and present, taking in everything that went on around it.  It was there before our houses were built, over 50 years ago - it watched the residents move in and move out, showered our lawns with nutrient rich leaf trash, blocked the highway noise and northern cold fronts in the winter and provided very needed shade from the hot summer sun.  We surmised it was at least 79 years old or more and it felt like a grandparent.  It had adopted us, like we adopt cats and dogs, to become our friend and protector.  I'd always taken comfort from it's strength and beauty.

And the tree knew the end was coming.

Even when the last day came and the tree people came to cut down the rest of the tree it tried to reach out to me.

They had their cherry picker at the top and were lopping off the tip of the tree bit by bit.  I sat on the bench in my living room to watch - I had a clear view of the poor old thing from one of my windows.  My radio was on and a song started to  play - one last message for/from my old friend. 

"So long, I hate to see you go, but I'll save my tears for later on down the road.
How come I keep on holding on, knowing you won't be coming home."

It's a song by Robert Cray called, "(Won't be) Coming Home."  Have you heard it?  I hadn't until that minute.  After listening to the song for a few minutes I got up and went into the kitchen, flabbergasted by all of the coincidences and disheartened by the site of the death of a friendly giant.  

It took almost week of 12 hour days for those guys to get that tree down to a stump.  Now I have an unfamiliar view of the sky from my bedroom window.  The squirrels and birds that called that tree home are now scrambling to find new winter hide-a-ways.  I raked up it's leaves for the last time and found a piece of the tree to take home for a keepsake - a reminder that trees have souls and are always working with us whether we know it or not.  I think I'll carve a heart into it.

Even though we'll never have to worry about the big old willow oak falling over or dropping a heavy limb on a car, we were all sad to see it go.  The owner of the house fought it for years; I'm sure she's the most upset of all of us.  She was very attached to grandfather willow oak.

Like me, you're probably wondering what "home" has to do with this tree.  I really don't know.  Maybe it's how trees feel when their roots are spreading through the earth, maybe our homes are mostly made of trees so they feel a great part of our lives, or maybe "home" is a code word for something even greater.   The best answer I have is the link I have between this tree and a communication I had maybe 10 years ago.

I was on a little island to the west of Vancouver learning from Penelope Smith how to communicate with animals.  It was a week-long class and every day Penelope would talk to the group for a few hours then send us out to practice what we learned.  One day she gave us some homework - we were to find a tree, connect to it mentally, and have a conversation.  Some of us had better success and longer discourses than others; I was somewhat successful with the tree I chose by getting an answer to one question: Where am I going?

The answer I got was, "You're going home."

I guess that became my access code to the trees of the earth. 

Good bye old friend.  I'll be listening for more messages.  Home will never be the same without you.

Words to Live By (Master Key)

Ten words and twenty minutes.

That's all you're supposed to need - oh, and 40 days.

Dr. Alex Loyd has done it again: found a way to enhance your immune system and get your body, mind and soul to work better with the health tools you are working with already.  He calls it the Master Key because you use it to unlock your state of being and become open to effortless healing.  He believes that there is a spiritual immune system that can be healed and activate spontaneous healing in the physical immune system.  It doesn't matter what your spiritual beliefs are, if you really want to heal yourself in a real and permanent way, you have to start with your spiritual core.

There is a Master Key System, written by  Charles F. Haanel in 1916, which is a book that explains the law of attraction and teaches you how to use it to improve your life.  This is not it.  Dr. Loyd created a meditation system that repeats 10 very important words over some video with a 528 hertz tone that's supposed to be the frequency that love vibrates playing in the background.  According to Dr. Loyd, the words have to be said aloud and repeated in a certain order to work.  The video, which is a compilation of nature photos and love tone, were added to enhance the experience and make the healing really work for you.  You have to get your whole system working - aural, visual and imagination - at the same time to get the key to unlock your healing ability.

You can use it with the Healing Codes to create a more powerful healing.  Apparently the Master Key meditations make everything work better - your cells open to accept nutrition, standard or alternative medications work better to enhance your body's health.  Your vitamins work better, you absorb nutrients better, your subconscious opens and accepts positive entrainment more easily.  And, yes, it works with the Law of Attraction because you start to be more positive and automatically start vibrating higher and attract a high vibrating and healthy lifestyle.

He's adamant about how good it works, so I decided to give it a try.  I'm only about a week in, so I'll let you know how it goes.  To learn more about the Healing Codes, go here: The Healing codes.

I'll give you the first word, which is really a phrase:  "I am."  You'd be surprised to know how important this phrase is because it can mean so many things. I even wrote a newsletter about it.  When you finish the statement, "I am," you describe yourself, your life, and your expectations, so it's really important to pay attention to what you say.  Make it good.

The rest of the words are just as important, and the trick is not that you believe in them, just that you're open to knowing about them.  This is supposed to open your mind and body to healing of all sorts.  It may take 40 days to open, but it should be worth it.

Here's a video on Vimeo of Dr. Loyd describing the Master Key:  Dr. Alex Explains

Check out this article about how saying the right words can activate your DNA strands in Waking Times.com: Scientists Prove...

The program is still young, so you won't find a lot about it right now.  I'll let you know how it works for me. 

Theos is Expanding My Horizons

Today I'll introduce you to Eva Gregory.  Spiritual teacher and living channel to Theos, a group of high vibration energetic beings, Eva has made it her mission to teach us how to connect with our own higher selves to live a prosperous, abundant, creative life.

I joined her Purposeful Prosperity Group to see what she and Theos had to teach, and today we had our first webinar.  It was hopeful, upbeat, interesting, and relaxing.  It was a nice way to spend an hour.

Eva's goal for our group is to help us access our own internal knowledge, bring our frequencies up to connect with our higher selves, and teach us how to listen to our own voices to thrive in every area of our lives.  Theos connects with us to aid our journey into the higher energy frequencies. We had two discourses from Theos during this webinar, and the second one helped raised my frequency so much it took me a while to come back to earth.  I didn't even feel the transition.

Think of closing your eyes for a few minutes.  You're listening to someone tell you how easy and great things are going to be.  You're relaxed and not thinking about anything, just listening.  Then it's over and when you open your eyes you find yourself 20 feet off the ground and wonder how you got there - this is what it felt like.  Even though I was still sitting on the couch I felt like I was floating away.  Very cool.

I've got 3 more webinars to decide if I want to join up for more at full price.  I just might.

My hope is to be able to tap into my purpose, join up with my higher self, and take charge of my entrepreneurial growth.  I want to learn to see my path, not just feel it.  I think Eva Gregory might be the one to help me get there.

Eva has a rich life history.  She's a licensed business coach, author of several books and training programs, co-host of several radio programs, and more.  To learn more about her, check out her website: www.YourGuidanceonDemand.com  

To hear some communications from Theos:  Ask Theos

If you want to learn more about Eva's Purposeful Prosperity program, check out her blog: Everyone Wants to See You Succeed.

Eva also has an online community where you can subscribe to listen to live calls with Eva and Theos.   Visit www.TheCosmicLivingroom.com to see more. 

What ever happens, Eva's smooth voice and good advice will help my vibrational journey.  We'll see what I decide when my free month is up.  I'm looking forward to my growth.

Goodbye Sandy!

Sandy came by last week.  She huffed and puffed but couldn't knock down any trees, so she moved on.  Thank goodness for us.

Unfortunately, though, the farther north she went, the more aggressive she got, and finally she was able to live up to her name and bury some towns in sand and water.  New York, New Jersey, Connecticut; Sandy's visit to them has left a long lasting impression on the people who live there, and not a good one. 

We in the Washington D.C. area have had our weather problems.  We cringe whenever it rains - we wait for our basements to flood and our electricity to stop flowing, and when the weather is dry we worry about our lawns dying off and fight off the ants.  My house sits on top of clay and underground streams.  It's condition relies on the weather.  Usually when we have a lot of rain my basement floods and my windows leak.  I have to worry about mildew and mold.  This summer brought a drought and my house was suffering in a different way.  The basement floor sank a little, the walls shifted, and the doors had trouble staying closed.

Strangely enough, Sandy fixed my house.  The clay expanded with the extra moisture from all of that rain, the walls moved back, and now my doors close easily.  Even though I had sump pump trouble my basement stayed dry, and even though my neighbors prepared for evacuation the Potomac stayed put and left them alone.  We sighed with relief and surprise when Sandy moved her destructive power to other unsuspecting states.  They thought they were prepared for the worst - they were wrong.  We were prepared for the worst, and didn't need to be.  

I'm sorry for all of those people who lost their homes and lives and jobs to this hurricane.  I feel their anxiety, worry, and pain.  It could've easily happened to us, and we are aware of how lucky we are.  I am aware of how lucky I am.  My house is dry, my fridge is still working, and I have gas in my car. 

Thank you, Sandy, for leaving us unscathed.  Shame on you for what you did to everybody else.  You did what you came for; showed the Eastern Shore and New York City that Mother Nature is still in charge and created a place in history as the largest hurricane ever recorded in the Atlantic basin.  At least you weren't the deadliest.  Thank you for that, too.

There's a lot of talk about how much it's going to cost to fix everything.  It'll be interesting to compare New Jersey's healing time to New Orleans, which is still recovering from Katrina.  Our wallets were already stretched to their limits - I had to choose between trimming some tree branches away from my roof before the storm and groceries.  I chose the tree trimming and am cleaning out my freezer.  It'll be interesting to see who gets to rebuild their home, who has to move on, and who never recovers.  It'll be interesting to see what the next storm does to us. 

I used to feel alone with my water worries.  I don't anymore.  Every year someone new feels my anxiety, and even though I'm sorry for them, I'm grateful for the company. 

I guess that gives me something else to thank Sandy for. 

Goodbye, you stupid hurricane.

Trying Something New (Healing Codes)

Have you ever heard of the Healing Code?

It's something relatively new in the energy healing world, and it seems to gaining popularity because people everywhere are raving about it.  So I tried it.

Dr. Alex Lloyd says that the cause of most of our physical and emotional health problems is internal stress.  We worry about everything; the older we get, the more we give ourselves to be responsible for, the more we worry.  Our response to everything around us causes stress that can affect our health.  Stress suppresses our immune system, sucks away our problem solving creativity, causes us to see things negatively, and  changes our blood flow activity.  Everything from thinking about our eating habits to our jobs to our children, or just worrying about our next bill, snowballs into a major stress response in the body.  All these things that aren't life threatening but sends us into a fight or flight mode creates a malfunction in the body that can cause anxiety, depression, heart disease, immune deficiency issues, and more.

Dr. Lloyd discovered the Healing Code while searching for a cure for his wife's depression.  He describes the Healing Code as a hidden fuse box in the body that can be activated by your own hands that can relieve this stress and heal the body.  Because he's a scientist at heart he decided to investigate and prove the reality of this fuse box by teaming up with another doctor, Dr. Ben Johnson.  Together they created and honed a system to go with this activation, wrote books and built a DVD program  to teach people how they can heal themselves.  Check out this video to get a more intensive explanation.  It's a radio show, but very informative.

They don't advocate dumping traditional health care, but believe strongly that this system can be a great addition to our daily personal health care, like taking a multivitamin or watching our diets.

They've gotten rave reviews from thousands of people, including Dr. Lloyd's wife, who have tried The Healing Codes and healed themselves.  So I decided to see what the positive hub-bub was all about.

I've known about hands-on energy healing for years, so when I read the book it seemed like a no-brainer for me.  After a short prayer to draw energy into your chakra system, you funnel energy through your hands, point your fingers at different points around your head, and activate those points into action.  After a little examination into what your main problem really is, you can focus the intention of the healing with a few short words during the healing activation.  Easy peazy.

The problem I have is that I can't get myself to do it as often as I should - kinda like my exercise regimen.  The doctors advise doing the 6 minute activation 3 times a day.  Like all of my other  programs, I manage twice a day, sometimes forgetting all together, or losing my healing steam when my work schedule gets crazy.  But I keep on trying.

Here's a little lesson on your chakra system:  You have seven major energy points in your body, stretching from the top of your head to your tail.   These major energy points, which you can focus on and keep healthy with meditation and proper health care, draw in and expel energy throughout your physical and ethereal body.  Keep your chakras healthy and you keep your body and mind healthy, inside and out.  Like an invisible nervous system, the major chakras feed energy to smaller energy points, like the bottom of your feet, joints, hands and fingers.

Dr. Lloyd found the energy points in the head that affects the endocrine system, which regulates your body health.  Without even mentioning chakras, Dr. Lloyd found a way to draw energy into your hands, point your fingers to 4 different points around the head, start an energy flow from your hands to your chakras and jump-start your healing ability, like spark plugs powering an engine.

It's actually been interesting.  Every time I point my fingers at myself, I can feel some kind of physical sensation.  You hold your hands away from your head - it works better if you don't touch yourself - and the flow of energy from your fingers makes contact with your skin.  I've felt warmth, a feeling of pulsation between my hands, a pulling as if I were stretching the skin with my fingers, and an electrical tingling sensation.  Each session has brought a slightly different experience.

I've been doing it a while now, and even though my arthritis isn't cured and I'm still having hot flashes, I'm still trying. The healing is supposed to be happening, even if I don't feel it.  My problem is that even though I'm feeling energy moving, like with Mr. Trivedi's energy transmissions, I'm not sure if anything is actually happening. 

Since the theory is that doing the codes heals more than what you're focused on, I'll keep on using them.   I'm sure I've got a lot of stress that needs to be relieved.  And if a code a day keeps the doctor away, I'm all for it.

I've signed on to hear about Dr. Lloyd's new healing therapy, which is supposed to  be better, so I'll let you know how it goes.  

She Isn't Here

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I wake up in the morning and wonder why I’m still in bed.  I used to take my time, listen to a meditation audio and plan my day.  I used to like my mornings, but now I feel like I should get up the second my eyes open, and I realize that I have trouble wanting to go to bed at night no matter how tired I am.

I get up and look at the floor.  When I go into the bathroom I glance at the threshold.  When I pass the guestroom I check out the bed. 

When I start to arrange my day in my head my timetables are at odds.  I don’t need to limit my time out.  I have more time to get ready for work and I don’t have to worry about coming home at a particular hour.  I can leave the house and take my time coming back, so why worry about a schedule?

She isn’t here anymore.  I don’t have to consider her in my plans anymore.

I go downstairs and look at my easy chair.  I can take the cover off of it.  That fence around the birdcage to keep the bird out f reach can go downstairs.  The bowl I’ve been stepping over and sometimes into can get put away.  It feels odd to reach for my snacks or the bird or the kitchen sink without having to stretch over something on the floor.  It feels strange to move around the house without having to be constantly aware of the area around my feet.  I can go down the stairs without a second thought.  I’ve got nothing to trip over other than the junk I left on the stairs.

Because she isn’t here anymore.

I don’t have to rush home straight from work.  I don’t have to make special trips to the pet store.  When the bird throws food on the floor I don’t have to worry about it, though I do spend a lot more time cleaning up after her these days.  There’s nothing between me and the stove, between my butt and the couch, between me and the door when someone knocks.  My kitchen counter is less cluttered with treats and toys. 

My dishwasher still needs cleaning out, though.  One day I’ll have the heart to open it and take out the boxes and bags of treats that I store there.  I wonder briefly on a daily basis if my neighbor across the street could use them.  And the basket of toys in the family room – should I take them to the shelter?

Back to my morning doldrums: I finally realize that I didn’t get my good morning hug.  Last night I didn’t get my comfy lap cuddle.  I don’t go out for a before-bed walk anymore and when I go to bed at night I feel like I’m forgetting to do something.  There’s an important chore I’m not accomplishing.  I’m going to have to find another way to begin and end my days.

I don’t have to fight off a tongue bath or let anyone out to pee.  The only creature waiting for me is the bird in her cage.  Even though she is glad to see me, she’s useless as a cuddle bug; she has a tendency to bite me when I get too friendly. 

My mood is low.  I have no feelings of accomplishments, no appreciation, no adoring stares; no one is waiting for me to get off my butt and do something worth watching.

           No one is looking through my grocery bags or sneezing at me for attention.

My plants in the backyard are thirsty.  My tomatoes are ripening without me.  I don’t go outdoors to do poop patrol any more. 

It’s just the bird and me now.  She’s irritating me because she always has to be with me these days, hanging over my shoulder, following me around the house and nagging at me.   Apparently she has a lot of things she doesn’t have to do either, so I’m her only source of entertainment.

Jolene is gone.  Her illness was unexpected.  The silence around the house was unexpected.  I never suspected that I’d be de-dog-proofing the house this week.  I wasn’t ready for her absence, and it’s still hitting me.

She isn’t here anymore.

Damn it.

Over Kill?

When Does It Become Too Much?

It's been almost a year, so I decided to take stock of what I'm doing to improve my life. 

First thing in the morning I listen to a selection of Morry Zelcovich's brainwave entrainment.  Then I do a 6 to 10 minute session of the Healing Codes - I'll tell you about this in a little while.

After I get downstairs I drink a cup of my Gano coffee.  After breakfast I sit down with my computer to watch a lesson on social media management, but I end up spending so much time with my email and Facebook accounts, I rarely get to that.  I get emails from Richard Luck (New You Life Coach), Sonia Ricotti (Lead Out Loud),Wendy Lipton-Dibner (Elite Video Mastery), Lori Spagna (Efil's God), Jim White (What's my Purpose), and so many more.  Granted, I signed up for their newsletters and some of them are very informative, but I can watch videos and read newsletters until dinner time.  

Sometimes I break for lunch.

I listen to music samples from Mindpower MP3 and Paraliminal Learning Strategies, subscribe to free video lessons like the Elite Video Mastery because I'm interested in doing quality videos, Pinterest and Google+ info videos because I'd like to understand how to use the social media giants better, and Natalie Lewell's Youtube show, "The Inspiration Show" with interviews with self-help heroes like Bob Proctor and Joe Vitale.  Some of these videos are 45 to 90 minutes long!  I sign up and listen to webinar shows from Darius Barazandeh, Awakening to Abundance, and Manifest Everything Now, because I like to learn about new self-help programs.  They call these telesummits and feature speakers from all over the world.  These are also over an hour long.  I'm a glutton. 

And I'm taking notes.  This makes the video tutorials last forever because I have to stop them after every other minute so that I can type the highlights onto my word documents.  My typing is getting pretty good.

Sometimes I get up off the couch to let the dog out to pee.

The Healing Codes

I buy e-books.  I've read some of them: "Frequency", "You Can Heal Your Life", "Follow your Passion, Find Your Power".  I just finished "The Healing Code", a book about using your own healing power to heal your physical and emotional problems.  This is why I've added my Healing Code sessions to my repertoire.  I'm trying to heal my arthritis.  I'll tell you how it goes in a future blog.

My next book is called, "The Translucent Revolution."  The subtitle is, "How People Like You Are Waking Up and Changing the World."  I might be if I could get away from my computer.

In between all of this education I write newsletters and blog posts.  I look through my Facebook, Google+, Twitter and Pinterest accounts to read and share posts and pictures.  I try to read other people's blogs and articles to see what people are thinking about these days.  I've actually found some pretty interesting people, and I'm learning a lot about how to take care of my bird and dog. 

I'm supposed to watch my subliminal success accelerator videos from www.subliminal-videos.com three times a day.  I remember to about once a week.  I'm supposed to do my healing codes three times a day.  I manage twice; before I get out of bed in the morning, and after I go to bed at night.   I'm supposed to listen to my brainwave entrainment audios three times a day and a paraliminal meditation at least once a day.  The best I've managed is one brainwave entrainment audio in the morning before I do a Healing Code.  And I've pretty much forgotten about Burt Goldman and his Quantum Leaping.  Sorry, Burt.

I think I'm trying too hard, but I can't stop.  Maybe I'm trying to make up for 50 years of only thinking about improving myself.  Maybe I'm a New Age shopaholic.  I think it's more of being a kid in a candy store.  I can't help myself.  It's all just too good. I'm even drinking water from a water bottle designed to energize my water.

www.VibesUp.com

I'm going to have to slow down if I want to continue; maybe finish something before I start something else.  I should really spend a few months doing one thing at a time to see what works best.  A friend of mine once asked me to give her an update about how well a product works after I've tried it for a couple of weeks, and I had to tell her that there was no way I could.  At this point, even if my life were to miraculously become magical, I'd have no way to tell what it was that worked.  Everything has become a part of a bigger story.  There are too many things going on at the same time.

That may not be a bad thing.  I'm sure keeping busy. 

But not too busy to let the dog out to pee every once in a while.

Frequencies of a Cicada

Music To My Ears

I was going to do an article on the sounds of cicadas, but changed my mind.

Every morning, when I take Jolene out to brush her, I have an opportunity to sit on my porch and listen to the morning nature calls.  Usually bird-song is the most prevalent morning sound that comes into my awareness because of the nice number of birds in my neighborhood, and sometimes my neighbors are taking control of the airwaves with their leaf blowers and lawn mowers because, well, my neighbors are trying to irritate me.

It's August now, and the cicadas are buzzing in volumes that overtakes anything else that might try announce themselves before noon.  And I find it relaxing.

I figured there was a reason that cicadas exist, come out every summer, and relax the human population within earshot, so I investigated the frequency at which they vibrate - 123 hertz. 

Apparently cicada song is most important to other cicadas; the males are calling to the females.

But I did find out that 123Hz affects us too.  I found a chart that says it affects Pyoderma and Influenza.  This information wasn't helpful to me.  I looked up Pyoderma: skin disease.  Maybe singing cicadas cure acne.

When you play B2 with a bassoon the frequency is 123Hz.

When your subwoofer vibrates with 123 Hz it irritates you.

Certain tree frogs sing higher at around 123 Hz to compensate for traffic noise.  After all, they want those female frogs to hear them.

I also found out that if you held a singing cicada next to your ear, you could damage your hearing.  So, don't do that.

So far none of this was what I was looking for, so I changed my search to information about the cicada  and it's symbolism.  This was a bit more interesting.

Because of it's ability to reemerge from the ground and shed it's shell to fly, it's a symbol for resurrection and reincarnation in Japan and China.   The Greek lover of the goddess of Dawn, Tithonus, was granted immortality but not eternal youth, so he got older and weaker with time until all that was left of him was his voice.  He is now a cicada.  In the case of the 7 year cicada, it's numerology symbolism signifies a great imagination and ability to manifest with conscious thought.

Cicadas come out during the hottest days of the summer.  Since this corresponds with the sun being at the center of our lives, they are part of the sun-sign and bring to light our ability to connect and harmonize with our family and neighbors.  Since some of them take their time coming up from the earth,  (some lay dormant for 17 years!) they can bring to mind timing, patience, longevity, and the rhythm of nature.

There are about 2500 species of cicadas around the world.  Cicadas have five eyes and can see very well, but their cellular memories are so old, whatever they see looks like a tree to them.  So don't take it personally when they try to land on you.  Like aphids, they live on tree sap and water, so they do no harm to us or our gardens unless the females lay too many eggs and damage young plants.  It seems their main role on this planet is to breed, multiply, and be food to any who dares to eat them.  While underground they aerate the soil and promote tree growth.  They offer themselves to us as a gift and we reward them by running away screaming - we seem to judge ugly, noisy things as harmful.  Shame on us.

There is a genus of cicadas that include 7 species called Magicicada, a name I love.  They include the 13 year and 17 year brood.  They come out in such great numbers, in the millions sometimes,  to survive the feeding frenzy that ensues.  Their predator's tummies fill up way before their numbers dwindle, giving them a chance to mate and go back to ground and wait for the next cycle of rebirth.

For years researchers have sought to explain how the Magicicada life cycles developed and what the significance of the prime numbers (13 year and 17 year) might mean. 

The long underground life span seems to have started 20,000 years ago, during the last glacial period.  The Magicicada may have developed an ability to wait until the warm weather signaled safety for an emergence, leading to a change in their genetic makeup.  A theory about the prime numbers has something to do with Nature's way to keep cross breeding with other cicadas to a minimum.  There is a great article here, on ScientificAmerican.com that could tell you more.

I tried and tried and found no esoteric information on how cicadas affect us and why they keep coming back every year.  All I could do is theorize that there's a message that we're not getting, so they'll keep singing to us until we get it.  They've been trying for thousands of years and are very patient with us, and I hope they never give up.  

So forget about the article.  I think I'll just go outside and listen to my magic cicadas.  Someday I'll figure it out.

Really?

Oy, Oy, Oy, Oy, Oy!

My morning started normally enough.

After I fed the dog, fed the outdoor birds and fed the indoor bird, I loaded the indoor bird onto her perch and took my breakfast to the couch where I happily ate my scrambled eggs and drank my coffee as I watched my morning talk shows.

I pulled out my laptop and started checking my mail.  Jolene camped out next to me on the couch to wait for lunch time.  So far it was a nice relaxed morning.

2 hours later I had to pee.  This meant I had to get up off the couch and go upstairs.  It was the perfect opportunity to turn everything off and get ready to go grocery shopping.

I closed my laptop, gathered my dishes and got up.  Jolene knew it was time to go and jumped off the couch to wait for me.  First I had to get the bird so she could go back into her cage, which can be a challenge, but we had a routine that made it easy. 

I grabbed a sunflower seed and asked her to come to momma.  Thankfully, she came without me having to coerce her with more seeds.  Sometimes she decides she needs a little more time and I have to be patient with her.  There's no hurrying a bird, especially a temperamental bird like mine.  Once she was on my arm I grabbed my dishes and turned off the lights and three of us went upstairs to the kitchen.

Boy, I really had to pee - but first I had to put the dishes in the sink.  Then I took the bird to the front door - this was part of our routine.  As she waited patiently on my shoulder I attached the suction cup perch on the glass of the door and tried to lure her onto it with a couple of sunflower seeds, but she wanted to show her appreciation first and cuddle with my cheek.  I tried not to dance the "full bladder" dance, pretended to appreciate her appreciation because I wanted to encourage her attempts at being nice to me, and after a couple of trying minutes (trying my patience, trying my bladder) I was able to get her off my shoulder and safely on the perch.  Then I opened the door a couple of inches to get the mail out of the mailbox that was right outside on the wall. Once I retrieved the mail I closed and locked the door against any accidental openings and letting the bird out of the house.  Even with clipped wings my bird can fly.

We did this so that I could have some time to take her dish of prepared fruit and veggies out of the fridge and put it in her cage.  If I did it before she went back to her cage she wouldn't get territorial and try to bite me.  So after I sorted the mail I went into the kitchen to get her dish.

Now, I was fighting the clock.  If I went to the bathroom first it would take too long; the bird would get antsy and fly to the top of her cage before I was ready, and it would be tricky getting her in it.  I could wait until she went in to eat, then close the door, but in my mind that was another battle I didn't have time to deal with and couldn't wait for her.  So I concentrated on holding my water and went straight to the fridge and got the dish out.

While I was there, I took out the food for the dog.  The plan was I'd put the bird food in the cage, get the bird safely inside, go to the bathroom and then feed the dog.

Well.

I put the bird's dish in her cage and went to the front door.  Good, she was being patient with me today.  I lured her back to my arm with another sunflower seed, then noticed there was an almond shell on the floor.  As I decided it was there because Jolene left it there, I bent down to pick it up.  I couldn't risk Jolene trying to swallow it.  I reached for it just as Jolene showed up - we raced to see who'd get it first.  I did.

Suddenly my hand was covered with ants.  Crap!

I instinctively dropped the almond.  Jolene instinctively grabbed it.  The bird instinctively hung on for dear life as I grappled with the dog to get the stupid almond shell out of her mouth.

OMG, my bladder will explode any second now.

I'm yelling at the dog and secretly hoping the bird will stay calm and not bite my ear. She did this last week and my ear is still healing.  Luckily Jolene was tickled by the ants and dropped the stupid almond.  I grabbed it, raced to the back door for some weird reason, and threw it out the door.  While the door was open I shook off some of the ants.  Miraculously the bird stayed on my shoulder.

I tried to stay calm for my bladder's sake.  I grabbed yet another sunflower seed and lured the bird onto her perch on the inside of the cage door, then slowly shut the door on her.  There were still a few ants crawling up my arm.  I squashed them as fast as I could.  Whew!  The bird was tucked away, the ants on my arm were dead.

But before I could head upstairs to the bathroom I had to contend with the rest of the ants,  so I went back to the kitchen, grabbed a can of bug spray, ran to the front door, picked up the rug in front of the door and threw it outside, ants and all; I could see little ant bodies flying everywhere.  Then I sprayed the heck out of the floor and the door jam.

Once I could tell that the ants were all dead, I considered going outside to see how they got in in the first place.

But I REALLY HAD TO PEE!

So I decided it could wait and finally headed for the bathroom.

But now I found that every move I made increased the risk of my peeing my pants.  So I slowly headed for the stairs.  Very slowly.  I took a step, paused to relax my bladder, took a step, paused to relax my bladder, took a step and hoped no one was standing outside my front door watching me, then paused again to calm my bladder.

Miraculously I made it upstairs to the bathroom with dry pants, but:  now I have a knot in the sash that's holding my shorts up. 

I struggled and struggled, and long story shortened:  I did not wet myself.

I'm too old for this stuff.

(P.S.  I never did find the ant trail into my house, Jolene got fed, and I did get to the grocery store, where I forgot to buy half of the groceries I went to the store for in the first place but I did bring home stuff I found that looked good.)

Clear My Blocks (Simply Healed)

I Can't See Clearly

Darius Barazandeh has a web radio show called "You Wealth".   He's sponsoring a series of interviews with energy healers of all kinds, called the "Revolution Shift 2012" series, and one day I checked into an interview with Carolyn Cooper, founder of the Carolyn Cooper Simply Healed Method.  

Carolyn's method is an approach to healing that clears negative emotions in a non-invasive way.  She can intuitively connect with your energy, see where you've accumulated emotions and negative energy on a mental, emotional and physical level,  and clear it to let you move forward in a positive light.

Carolyn says we all have flaws in our ancestral energetic DNA.  It turns out we can carry negative memories and emotions for generations.  In other words, if your great-great-great-great-grandmother had a bad experience that she never got over, you could still be carrying around that emotional block for her, and that could be the unknown reason you can't get ahead in your financial life.  Add your ancestor's traumas to your own traumatic experiences that you've accumulated over the years, and you've got a soup of negative energy floating around you keeping you from achieving your dreams.

I found this an interesting theory, and I decided to test it.  Goodness knows I've felt some unknown force holding me back, keeping me from my version of financial and personal success.  For years I've searched for ways to clear my veils and blocks, and it seems like I'm buried in them.  I chip away and chip away at my marble walls and hope for a breakthrough; slowly but surely I make dents and sometimes windows in my wall and I can take three steps instead of two steps before I have to take one back.  It seems that my purpose in this life is to fish for energy healers of all kinds and bring them forward to chip at my wall with me, and I have to say it's been an interesting journey.

Anyway, since Carolyn Cooper doesn't do one-on-one healings anymore, I searched for one of her students.   I found Dr. Tera Maxwell, PhD, on her website, Pure Energy Works.com.

 Through our emails I found out she lives almost an hour away from me in Annapolis, MD, and she could do our session over the phone.   I made an appointment, sent her my payment and called her at our scheduled time a few days later.  I found her a very nice, positive and energetic woman, and since her daughter was sleeping in the next room due to wake up at any moment, she was eager and ready to start the clearing.   I didn't mind, since I had my own "child" waiting for me upstairs.  My bird, Charlie, was itching to get out of her cage and was calling me during the whole hour's session.  She hated it when I was on the phone talking to some unseen person and would do anything to get my attention, so I had to leave her locked up in her cage.  Sorry Charlie.

 After some energetic searching and problem pin-pointing, Dr. Tera found my generational trauma, inherited from both of my parents.  Soon she was busy pushing through and clearing away the negativity.  She kept going back in time and found some "good" stuff on my father's side going back several generations ago.  Once cleared, Dr. Tera looked on my mother's side, and to my surprise found some negative trauma that had held on to my mother's family for 39 generations.  That's a long time to hold on to a problem.  She cleared it, checked my own background for other stuff and cleared that stuff out, and finally asked me how I felt.

I had spent the hour going through some emotions, looking for any physical reactions.  At times I was smiling gleefully, at others tears were on the verge of falling.  Some memories had surfaced that I knew needed to be healed and I'd told her about them, which she located in my energy field and healed.  Other than that I was feeling pretty good.  I figured it would take some time for me to see any improvement in my life and told her so.  We said our goodbyes at the end of the hour, and I continued my day; life went back to normal.

I noticed, however, that when I went to bed that night my mind seemed clear of my negative chit-chat.  My eyesight was even a little clearer.  It was the difference between looking through a dirty window versus a squeaky clean one.  In that way I guess my energy load was a little lighter.  Maybe I was seeing my environment through a clear energy field.  It never occurred to me before this that I needed to Windex my aura, but I guess we all should every once in a while.

It also makes me feel like a fish in a bowl.  If I have trouble seeing the world clearly, how do people see me?  I've had energy clearings before, and it did make a huge difference in the direction of my life path.  I guess this was a good lesson in making a conscious effort to clear out the crap every once in a while.  I do believe, like when I get my yearly physical, that I'm going have to call Dr. Tera for another appointment.

I'll let you know if anything else changes.

My Certificate (Law of Attraction)

I'm a certified Law of Attraction practitioner!

So now what?

Dr. Joe Vitale, a popular author and well-known teacher of the law of attraction, and Steve Jones, a certified clinical hypnotist and master LoA practitioner, developed a short study course to educate people on the law of attraction.  For not too many bucks I studied the e books and took a couple of short multiple choice quizzes to see if I learned anything, and I got a certificate for my trouble.  For some reason I thought it would be useful to be certified, so I bought in.

And I passed.

Now I have a certificate from the Global Sciences Foundation that proves I passed (though I have to presume that everybody passes) and pronounces me a Certified Law of Attraction Advanced Practitioner.

To add validity, it's signed  by Dr. Joe and Steve Jones. 

I filed the certificate away to get back to later as I continued my foray into high vibration learning experiences.  Now, a few months later, I had to wonder, what do I do with my accomplishment?

The answer is, I'm already doing it. 

I went to myglobalsciencesfoundation.org to check up on my next step.  I was surprised to find that they significantly raised the price of the course.  I must've been a beta tester.  I was also surprised to find a list of other people who've taken the test, and I was on the list along with a number of practitioners from all over the world that included doctors, teachers and life coaches.  I'd joined a club of honored members of the Global Sciences Foundation.  Ooh, fancy.

Going through the site I learned that I could do absolutely nothing with the certificate or teach others about what I learned.  I seem to be doing both.  With my websites and blogs I'm educating the public about making the law of attraction work for them.  I'm checking  out other teachers and programs and recommending them to anybody who needs a lift.  All I have to do is talk the talk and I'm doing my certificate proud.  And I get to add a link to my website on the list of practitioners.  

The question remains, what do I do with this certificate?

I guess I'll frame it and use it as a reminder to continue on my journey; and I'll take you along with me.

I'm Successful! (Yes to Success)

 Success!

Debra Poneman says that success is the journey, not the destination of a goal.

And I think she's right.  Dreaming up a goal, like creating a necklace or building a shed or writing a book and working toward that goal is where all the fun, growth, inspiration and fulfillment is.

Think about it.  When do you enjoy life the most, after you've accomplished something, or while you are trying to accomplish it?

As long as you're making your heart sing, as long as you're doing what you were born to do, you are successful.  If your purpose in life enhances the lives of others, fantastic!  But if you're only goal is to be a happy earthling, that's also good, because if you're happy then the people around you are happy.  The world around you is improved because of your happiness and you encourage your own creativity when you're living a happy, fulfilled life.

Set a goal, make sure everyday you take a step toward your goal; move forward and you'll feel successful whether you're making money or not.  The reward of your efforts is ultimately how successful you feel as you work to achieve your goals, not so much in the final achievement of your goal.  Have you noticed that once you finish a project, you find another to get involved with?  It's because we like to achieve, we enjoy the journey, we feel important when we are making a dream come true.

All of this came into my consciousness as I listened to the introductory audio of Debra's "Yes to Success" seminar.  I was trying to relax in the hot sun on my patio, connected to my computer via my headphones.  While listening to Debra talk, my gaze wandered to my tomato plant and I saw that there were 2 little green tomatoes growing on a stalk.  I thought, "Yes!  Success!"  It was the first time I was able to grow a vegetable ever in my back yard.  All it took was a big pot full of rich potting soil and cutting down about 4 trees.  For 20 years all I could grow in my back yard was moss because those trees blocked the sun.  Don't worry, they weren't my trees and I didn't cut them down myself.  Well maybe one was, but I waited until it was almost dead to cut it down.

Debra Poneman went on to talk about the "three E's" that go with your manifesting.  When you start working toward your goals ask yourself, is it easy?  Do you have the support of the universe?

Is it enjoyable?  Are you having fun?  Do you look forward to what you're going to be doing during the day?

Is it evolutionary?  Are you growing?  Are you learning?  Do you feel that you are moving ahead as a person?

This is the test of the "three E's".  If you pass this test then you know you're on the right path.

According to this test I'm doing all right.  This high vibration life has taken me places I never knew about this time last year.  I'm confident I'll discover even more exciting things by this time next year.  Hopefully I'll get away from my desk and discover amazing places as well.  Even if I don't, I'm doing all right.  I'm successful.

Two days later I finished the audio course.  I decided I like Debra Poneman.  She has a way of lifting my spirits and giving me hope that some day I'll be a financial success.   Some day soon.

On to my next growth spurt.

The other night, the first Sunday of June, I had another tele-appointment with Mahendra Trivedi.  This call was a lot like a sales call.  He talked about the products that the foundation was selling; wine, water, probiotics and vitamins.  He's been experimenting with beef and pork - directing energy to cows and pigs and the products for sale to change their cellular development, and he feels very successful. Apparently the pigs and cows are growing with record speed - healthy and plump.  Dahryn, his wife, is working on skin products, particularly a face serum, that she's infused with her energy.  They showed a few testimonial videos about how well it affects skin quality.  Soon she'll be selling it to the public.

I got a little bored with it all, but stayed put on my couch because I wanted to get my energy transmission, and it was a good thing I did.  Guru Trivedi came through with a pretty good one.  I said my little prayer as usual then went silent for 10 minutes.  Maybe it was because I was more specific with my prayer this time, or maybe Mahendra was feeling good about the compliments that his wife was sending his way during the call;  this transmission turned out to be pretty good.

Have you ever closed your eyes while in the passenger seat of a car at night?  Please don't say you've done it while driving.  Every time  you pass under a streetlight a shaft of light passes over your eyelids, then darkness, then light, then darkness, over and over again.

This was what was happening to me on my couch in my basement.  I'd turned off the TV because of the distraction during the call, so there was nothing in the room to cause the light shifts.  I found it interesting, but it was just the beginning.  Soon the light pulses were speeding up and I was feeling movement in my forehead - IN my forehead - like rotating waves of magnetic energy.  As I sat there experiencing the movement it expanded into my jaw, then my throat, and then I was feeling air moving on my face and legs.  Take your hand and flap it like a fan over your face.  This is what it felt like on the outside.  On the inside pressure was building, my head was pounding a little and my heart was beating in tandem with each wave.

The whole thing ended with energy spreading to my chest and heart area, and when the 10 minutes of silence was over my third eye was warm, my throat was sore and my heart chakra was wide open.  In fact, I was starting a large hot flash.  The transmission had opened my heart, my throat and my third eye chakras.  It was a wild ride.  I found it interesting that one other participant commented on the feeling of waves washing over her.  So I wasn't alone.

Now, the thing with these transmissions is that even though I can feel them when they're happening I still don't know if they are affecting me in any way.  People all over the place talk about how their lives have changed, their health has improved, their financial problems have disappeared, etc. - Thank you Guru-ji, thank you!

But I so far have noticed nothing out of the usual for me.  I'm even struggling a little more financially this year, and right now my throat is still sore, thank you very much.   But I like these monthly experiences and my interest is piqued about Dahryn's youth serum so I'll probably try some when it goes on sale.  Once I finish up my 6 month energy subscription I might even consider a face to face with the Trivedis some day during one of their retreats, just because I'm curious about how a person to person transmission might feel.

For now I'll take full advantage of the extra time I have while I'm not working and continue to explore my personal growth.  On paper I'm doing okay; in my head I'm pretty successful.  There's nothing to worry about, yet.  2012 is my year for developing my talents and stepping into my new, improved skin.  I'll wait for 2013 to worry about the bills.

Maybe by then the energy transmissions will kick in.